I'm losing my mind.

piccini9 · Post by **piccini9** » Sat Apr 10, 2010 2:41 pm

Nothing new, just feeling it more acutely than I have in a few years.
Haven't been riding, or running or doing any of the other stuff that keeps me sane.
I have been working a lot, and commuting way too many hours, and listening to way too much crazy conspiracy shit, (I'm kind of a captive audience on that one, more later) and just realized that I'm not making nearly as much money as I thought.
Plus, there are all the usual stressors of being alive, so I'm just feeling like a big bag of shit.

Going for a short run now, hopefully that will help a little.
Just keep an eye on me please, if I start to seem extra cranky/crazy please call me on it. I can't go down this road again.

Metalredneck · Post by **Metalredneck** » Sat Apr 10, 2010 3:07 pm

Right there with ya, Pete. Went to a concert last night, which helped, but the yoke of life is leaving a big scar on my neck. Sleep tonight, try again tomorrow.

WeAintFoundShit · Post by **WeAintFoundShit** » Sat Apr 10, 2010 3:57 pm

Just went through that. Trying to find a balance again coz life is too short to be miserable.

Good luck, man. Were I closer, I'd be of more help.

guitargeek · Post by **guitargeek** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 6:06 am

Sounds like you need a long, long motorcycle ride.

Hang in there, buddy! Rag's coming!

Pattio · Post by **Pattio** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 7:42 am

Lets try and have breakfast in the next few weeks at some arbitrary place halfway between Nyack and Providence (which should be just about near AZs neck of the woods too).

calamari kid · Post by **calamari kid** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 10:12 am

Sympathy from the left coast. Two months plus of working out of town away from my wife, bikes, and home, found me at a level of depression I haven't seen in a number of years. It really freaked me out. I've been slowly rising up out of it the last couple weeks. There is an other side to it. The trick seems to be believing that it's there and making it through the shit to get to it.

MATPOC · Post by **MATPOC** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 11:52 am

Pattio wrote:Lets try and have breakfast in the next few weeks at some arbitrary place halfway between Nyack and Providence (which should be just about near AZs neck of the woods too).

How about Spark? I'm hoping make it this Thursday.

piccini9 · Post by **piccini9** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 12:23 pm

MATPOC wrote:
Pattio wrote:Lets try and have breakfast in the next few weeks at some arbitrary place halfway between Nyack and Providence (which should be just about near AZs neck of the woods too).
How about Spark? I'm hoping make it this Thursday.

Yeah, even if I have to drive the Wagon. KLR chain is dangerously loose.

WeAintFoundShit · Post by **WeAintFoundShit** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 12:26 pm

Is your lack of a good chain a time thing, or a money thing? Coz I got 5 or 10 bucks on a new chain for ya, if other folks will pitch in for the rest. Would just pitch the whole thing, but I'm beeroke.

piccini9 · Post by **piccini9** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 2:14 pm

WeAintFoundShit wrote:Is your lack of a good chain a time thing, or a money thing? Coz I got 5 or 10 bucks on a new chain for ya, if other folks will pitch in for the rest. Would just pitch the whole thing, but I'm beeroke.

Time thing. Just been working and driving to and from work so much I just haven't had time to do anything.
Thanks for the offer though, My commute is about to go from 2-3 hours daily to just about nothing.
Really, I'll be working maybe a mile from home, should be good.

karl package · Post by **karl package** » Sun Apr 11, 2010 7:30 pm

calamari kid wrote:Sympathy from the left coast. Two months plus of working out of town away from my wife, bikes, and home, found me at a level of depression I haven't seen in a number of years. It really freaked me out. I've been slowly rising up out of it the last couple weeks. There is an other side to it. The trick seems to be believing that it's there and making it through the shit to get to it.

I hope you haven't been in the PDX area not getting in touch. You're always welcome to hang out if you're out this way. I have a plethora of non running bikes you can sit on and make ring ding ding noises. It's fun! You're welcome too Pete if you're out this way. (Offer may or may not include whiskey depending on whether or not I have any here)

calamari kid · Post by **calamari kid** » Mon Apr 12, 2010 12:07 am

karl package wrote:
calamari kid wrote:Sympathy from the left coast. Two months plus of working out of town away from my wife, bikes, and home, found me at a level of depression I haven't seen in a number of years. It really freaked me out. I've been slowly rising up out of it the last couple weeks. There is an other side to it. The trick seems to be believing that it's there and making it through the shit to get to it.
I hope you haven't been in the PDX area not getting in touch. You're always welcome to hang out if you're out this way. I have a plethora of non running bikes you can sit on and make ring ding ding noises. It's fun! You're welcome too Pete if you're out this way. (Offer may or may not include whiskey depending on whether or not I have any here)

Thanks for that. I'd definitely be giving you a ring if I was down south. They had us out in the desert east, Hermiston, Pendleton, Tri Cities, working stupid long weeks. I may have spent a lot of my growing up time in that area, but I have definitely become a city boy.

rolly · Post by **rolly** » Mon Apr 12, 2010 9:26 am

Yeah well, do that stuff then, P

I have been there many times. Things have been pretty good since I haven't been working, but I'm not sure I can recommend that as a course of action.

piccini9 · Post by **piccini9** » Mon Apr 12, 2010 2:05 pm

rolly wrote:Yeah well, do that stuff then, P

I have been there many times. Things have been pretty good since I haven't been working, but I'm not sure I can recommend that as a course of action.

Work has always been the big bugaboo for me. There was a brief time in my life where I inherited a little bit of money, and was able to live, without needing to work for a few years.
that was absolutely the best time of my life. I continued to work a little as a house painter, doing odd jobs, and having lots of fun.then the stock market went ka-blooey, I panicked, and wound up broke, and owing Uncle Sam a bunch of money in unpaid capital-gains taxes.

I REALLY fucked that one up.
Believe me, if I didn't have to go to work every day, I wouldn't. Would be more than happy to just hang out in the woods with my dog, and ride motorcycles and drink beer.
Right now that aint gonna happen.

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I'm losing my mind.

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