UTMC

i'm still alive.

my grandfather passed away on january 3rd. spent his last few days just sleeping. there is so much paperwork to do, and i don't want to do any of it.

due to his downward spiral really picking up speed the thanksgiving weekend, i have 4 incompletes for last semester. just final projects. but i really didn't have a chance. it's really stressful watching your last parental unit suffer such a loss, and knowing you can't make it better. and then couple that with knowing they can go ANY TIME.

there are a lot of IFs now. IF i get all the last semester's projects done by may, IF i pass trig and biology, hell, IF i pass what is all on my plate i'll have my degree in august.

the stress can really fuck you up too. i got the flu around xmas, followed immediately by bronchitis, which i was not able to conquer by the time i got strep throat this past week. so yeah.

i'm slowly getting my head unfucked. i've taken up martial arts, in between hacking up a lung. tomorrow i am buying a punching bag for the garage, in fact.

sympathy is not necessary. he is at peace, i presume with her. that alone makes it pretty tolerable. but yeah, my head is fucked up.

Cogito ergo imbibo, and good luck.

--Jaeger

That's what happened to my gpa, he was 94 and in his last few weeks he started sleeping more and more, and reported having very vivid dreams. He just didn't wake up from the last dream. Not a bad way to go if you ask me.

Peace

-Toonce(s)

Try to get some rest in addition to all the work you have in front of you.

+1 on taking some rest. You definitely deserve it.

Sending friend thoughts your way.

What they said, keep yourself alive.

Take care of yourself.

thanks, guys.